Day 6...or something along those lines...

I have failed miserably at attempting to find the time to write here everyday. So let's change this whole program. I will find the time to write here when the mood strikes me. Okay? Okay. Good. Glad we have that settled.

I wish I could sit down with my younger self and tell this young girl what lies ahead. Let myself know that what seems to be a big deal, a great loss, a crisis in the moment, is just that. Only a moment. A small blip in time and space. I think it would have made some of lifes lessons easier to learn from. Instead of repeating the same silly mistakes, errors in judgement over and over again. It could have saved some hardship.

On the contrary, I also wish I could sit down with my 80 year old self and learn a thing or two that way. How will things work out? Who will I be? Where will I be? WHY?

Having said all that (I know this is seeming a bit confusing, hang in there), I wouldn't change a thing about my life. I have learned something from every obstacle I have encountered. I mean, that's the whole point right? Learn from each experience. Feel richer for having had it, move on. If we can learn the lesson we are meant to learn, there is nothing to regret.

But wouldn't we all like a little sneak preview into the future? I hate when people say, "...Nothing shocks me anymore..." What?? How is that possible?? No one has experienced EVERYTHING. There is no way to remove the shock value of some things in life. And most often, we wouldn't want to...I don't think. What if it backfired?? What if it made life so much harder?? Knowing exactly what lay ahead? Sometimes, good or bad, the unexpected can be our saving grace. Dealing with the unexpected is how we prove to ourselves that we can endure almost anything. Our own strength and endurance can restore our own faith in ourselves. It can also help to weed out the (for lack of a better word) assholes. Generally, during the absolute best of times, or duing the absolute worst of times, people tend to flash their true colours. Show us who they really are. No false impressions. No assumptions. No guess work. It's all there. Just laid out, plain as day, for us to see. Peopes reactions to other peoples crisis or overwhelming happiness can be quite telling. Again, lesson learned. No need to dwell on the ones who have left us disappointed. Mend. Feel. Heal. LEARN. Done. Move on.

I can only speak from experience. I only know what I have learned. I don't even know if you could call this advice but, it's the only advice I have. If you learn from each experience (good or bad), you can successfully live without regret. Regret is a cancer. Consuming our very being. So be done with it. Remove it. We will all break hearts. We will all have our hearts broken. We will all endure some kind of loss. We will all be lost at some point or another. And when we find our feet back steady on the ground, it should be with a lighter heart. A more forgiving and self accepting heart. One that has learned a few ways of the world.

Super XO